I don’t want to hurt anybody.
I have no idea what has been wrong with everything recently.
all I know is I would give anything for it to be okay for me to ask you just how you’re doing or just tell you whats wrong just to hear you absolutley ridiculous opinions that were usually out of the question but your opinion always helped it always mattered. I know were both moved on and I geuss you can argue I havent since I’m writng this towards you but, you’ll never see this so I geuss I can justify it that way. I miss having you around but we both know the way things ended there is not a soul that would permit me even speaking your name.. I mean whats the harm in just being friends right thats all I would ask, I have a great guy now.. but I mean even a friendship would be frowned upon.. heck even me texting you would be frowned upon. I feel like since you’ve been absent I have people who know me but not the entire me.. as I write this I feel like such a horrible person… what would they say if they say this, what would he say .. I want to know why? why do you still ask people I know about me but not me why did we have to get soo drunk, why did you have to be soo angry, what did you have to lie, why did we have to be teenagers, why did you mess up, why was I so niave, Why did I falll for a smooth talker who felt not even half of what I felt and why am finding it so hard to love someone the same …. the sayings true once you TRULEY love someone you always will you just learn to love someone new… welll I’m learning too slowly but surley I just wish I had someone like you to give me advice about someone like him… I dont want to hurt anybody the way you hurt me.